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fighting daimoku

2012-02-10T13:46:00.000+08:00

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SGI President Ikeda’s encouragement about prayer, fighting daimoku, propagation p. 9 of 9
SGI President Ikeda and President Toda on happiness and prayers:

"My Dear Friends in America,” Daisaku Ikeda, p. 197 (Santa Monica, Jan. 27, 1993):

"Josei Toda once declared: "I want to rid Kansai of sickness and poverty.

Indeed, I am determined to do so!" These words remind us again of how he put his heart and soul into giving guidance and encouragement to the members.

"Exactly forty years ago, on the occasion of the First Osaka Chapter

General Meeting, President Toda proclaimed, "The purpose of our practice of faith is for all of us to become truly happy," and "We embrace faith to secure our happiness throughout the infinite future."

The purpose of faith is certainly not to subjugate oneself to the authority of temples or clergy, but, as my mentor clearly stated, to enable each person to attain happiness that endures eternally throughout the three existences of life.

President Toda also often said, "Those of you who have problems or sufferings, pray earnestly! Buddhism is a deadly serious win-or-lose struggle. If you should [pray with such an earnest attitude] and still have no solution forthcoming, then I will give you my life!"

This invincible conviction on which Mr. Toda was willing to stake his life inspired the members. By faithfully carrying on and practicing in accord with this spirit, we have built a global organization -- the SGI.

Buddhism means putting the teachings into practice. Practice equals faith. With sincere prayer and action, our desires cannot possibly fail to be fulfilled. When you continue to apply yourselves to your Buddhist practice toward kosen-rufu, solidifying and gaining mastery in your faith, you will find that all your prayers will definitely be answered.

An expert archer can accurately hit a target with a single arrow. I hope all of you will become masters of faith and masters of life who will realize the complete fulfillment of all your desires. I also pray that you will be leaders of unshakable conviction who proudly open a new age of hope for kosen-rufu and the world."
Basics of Faith from SGI President Ikeda

(From Discussion with SGI-USA Culture Department members, August 23-24, 2000, World Tribune 9-22-2000, p. 5)
Never detach yourself from the SGI organization

Michael Curtis: I participated in the SGI-USA Culture Department training course in Japan in 1991, and it proved to be an important turning point for my life. Over the last nine years, I have worked hard to actualize the determinations I made at that time. But it took a long time to make my efforts bear fruit.

How can one advance on the right path and fulfill one’s mission without any wasted effort? I want to devote my life to realizing the American ideal that you, President Ikeda, articulated for us in the new poem that you presented to us in the United States, “Soar—Into the Vast Skies of Freedom! Into the New Century!”

President Ikeda: Thank you very much. The bottom line, essentially, is never to detach yourself from the SGI organization. No matter what kind of leaders or members you may encounter there, it is important that you do activities in the organization throughout your life. Why? Because the core of the Daishonin’s Buddhism is kosen-rufu. And faith that is dedicated to kosen-rufu is found only in the SGI. The reason for your participating in training courses such as these is to build a self dedicated to kosen-rufu. Herein lies correct faith and correct action.
Chant to the Gohonzon for whatever it is that you want the most

President Ikeda: In addition, the important thing is to chant to the Gohonzon for whatever it is that you want the most. The Daishonin described his own spirit to propagate the Mystic Law as having “the same compassion as a mother who urges her child to drink from her breast.” (Gosho Zenshu, p. 585). Thus, you should chant to the Gohonzon honestly with whatever is in your heart, free of all pretension, just like a child entreating a parent.

You can chant for anything you like. If you like, you can chant to be wealthy, or you can even chant to be president of your country. All of your prayers will be answered. And they also carry on into future lifetimes. Of course, I am not saying that becoming president will necessarily make you happy!

At any rate, the important thing is to earnestly chant for what you want in your real, everyday life. Please also try to do your best in SGI activities. The SGI is an organization that champions justice and works for good. It is an organization that fights for people’s happiness and the sake of the Law.

Other than that, please act with honesty and integrity in your personal life — in your job, your family, your friendships. Please advance confidently, honorably and cheerfully, making steady efforts to improve and grow and achieve your dreams.

Curtis: Thank you.
Nichiren Daishonin’s Buddhism is the Buddhism of inconspicuous benefits

[WT E-Mail Express/April 13, 2001 | No. 107] Previews of the April 20 WT] In his Jan. 30 message "Parents and Children Practicing Together," President Ikeda says: "The daimoku chanted by those who exert themselves bravely and vigorously -- even if just one daimoku -- has more benefit and power than 1,000 or 10,000 daimoku chanted without any goal or accompanying action. Having faith that is dedicated to kosen-rufu is what counts."

• Fighting daimoku: (SGI President Ikeda, "Opening of the Eyes" lecture series (March-April 2006 Living Buddhism, Pg. 75) "Based on the Lotus Sutra, which reveals the Buddha's enlightenment, the Daishonin discovered the workings of the fundamental Law of Myoho-renge-kyo in his own life; he then went on to confirm and prove its power through his own life struggles. For us to freely manifest the working of the Law in our own lives, we need to chant with the same mind and attitude as the Daishonin. In other words, our chanting of Nam-myoho-renge-kyo - the daimoku - must be based on faith, the spirit to battle fundamental darkness. The daimoku that the Daishonin spread could be described as 'fighting daimoku'".

• President Ikeda's famous guidance about daimoku with a pledge for kosen-rufu; from the New Human Revolution, Vol. 1, Chapter 5, Pioneers, (June 6, 1994, World Tribune) [from a meeting in Brazil, October 20, 1960], where he says,

"Buddhism is a teaching of unsurpassed reason. Therefore, the strength of one's faith must manifest itself in the form of studying, exercising one's ingenuity and making twice as much effort as anyone else. Earnest daimoku is the wellspring for the energy to challenge these things. Your daimoku must also be a pledge."

"A pledge?" asked the man. None of the members had ever heard of such a concept before.

"Yes, a pledge." Shin'ichi replied. "This means to make a vow of your own accord and pray to fulfill it." Shin'ichi Yamamoto emphasized strongly: "Of course, there are all kinds of ways to praying. Some people may pray that everything just falls into their laps without having to make any effort. But a religion that encourages such prayer is one that will lead people to ruin.

"Prayer in Nichiren Daishonin's Buddhism means to chant daimoku based on a pledge or vow. At its very core, this vow is to attain kosen-rufu. It means chanting resolutely with the determination: 'I will realize kosen-rufu in Brazil. Therefore, I will show magnificent actual proof in my work. Please enable me to somehow bring forth my greatest potential.' This is what our prayer should be like.

"It is also important that we establish clear and concrete goals for what we hope to achieve each day and then pray and challenge ourselves to achieve each one. This earnest determination will give rise to wisdom and resourcefulness, thereby leading to success. In short, to win in life we need determination and prayer, effort and ingenuity. It is misguided to dream of getting rich quick, expecting to encounter a rare stroke of luck or some shrewd money-making scheme. This is not faith. It is mere fantasy."

WEDNESDAY, August 22nd, 2007

-- TO MY FRIENDS --

"No prayers will go unanswered."*

First, let's chant daimoku earnestly and determinedly.

Then put all our prayers into action!

This is a fundamental principle for victory and success.

* When we chant daimoku just as the Daishonin instructs, our voices resonate throughout the entire universe. Just as a soft voice can be transformed into a booming voice through the use of a good megaphone, when we chant Nam-myoho-renge-kyo with heartfelt prayer, we can move the entire universe. As Nichikan, the twenty-sixth high priest, says: "[If you have faith in this Gohonzon and chant Nam-myoho-renge-kyo even for a short while] no prayer will go unanswered, no offence unexpiated, no good fortune unbestowed, and all righteousness proven."

Nichiren Daishonin says that it is not difficult for those who chant the daimoku of the Lotus Sutra to become Buddhas equal to Shakyamuni (WND-1, 1030). This statement is very significant. He says this because the Mystic Law is the origin of all Buddhas.

We must absolutely never give up on prayer. He declares: "Muster your faith, and pray to this Gohonzon. Then what is there that cannot be achieved?" (WND-1, 412). We need to pray "as though to produce fire from damp wood or to obtain water from parched ground" (WND-1, 444).

- (The Wisdom of the Lotus Sutra, Volume 5, page 152)

--- DAILY GOSHO ---

"When one comes to the end of one's good fortune, no strategy whatsoever avails. When one's karmic rewards are exhausted, even one's retainers no longer follow one."

(The Strategy of the Lotus Sutra - The Writings of Nichiren Daishonin, Vol. 1, page 1000) Selection source: "Kyo no Hosshin", Seikyo Shimbun, August 22nd, 2007

---- DAILY ENCOURAGEMENT ----

Nichiren Daishonin says: "It is the heart that is important" (WND-1, 1000). Our personal happiness and the well-being of society come down to what is in our hearts and minds. We need to train our hearts--our spirits--to be both strong and perceptive. We mustn't allow ourselves to be deluded by the illusory walls created by our inner cowardice or complacence. It is when people resolve to win and take action with courage and perseverance based on a strong spirit and vibrant life-force that the dawn of a new age arrives. (SGI Newsletter 7304, The New Human Revolution, Volume 20, Chapter 1, The Path of Friendship, 61. Translated on Aug 13, 2007.)

[From a translation of President Ikeda's "To My Friends" published in the Seikyo Shimbun and more. (Posted by: "Mitsuko Ornauer" mitsukoo@oasis.mediatti.net Wed Aug. 22, 2007)]

• "Using your voice to chant Nam-myoho-renge-kyo will spur you to action and give you strength and vitality. It will even activate the protective forces within the universe," SGI President Ikeda says in his Feb. 21, 2007 address. "By chanting for the people you meet, you are embracing them with your spirit and influencing them in a most positive way. And through such prayers, you will strengthen your ties with those people to whom you naturally feel close. Your prayers profoundly affect friends who may not embrace faith, creating heart-to-heart bonds and helping them form a connection with Buddhism.

"In Buddhism, nothing is wasted. Freely tell others about this philosophy, in your own words. It isn't necessary to cite complex theories or arcane terms. Since the Buddhist Law is inherent in your life, you don't need to be anything other than yourself. Chant about whatever your concerns are, whether they be problems you are facing, your goals, kosen-rufu or the happiness of yourself and others. Your earnest prayers will bring forth your inherent Buddhahood, enabling you to build an eternal and indestructible state of life."(WT E-Mail Express April 20, 2007 | No. 414; Previews of the April 20 World Tribune)

Human Revolution, vol. 3, Fruition Chapter, late autumn, 1948:

Shin’ichi Yamamoto came to submit his resume to President Toda; while waiting, he listened while President Toda tells a suffering man seeking guidance on how to solve a seemingly insoluble problem.

“Stand up with faith. You should lead a powerful life. There will be a solution beyond your wildest imagination. Chant until you see a clear result. You can change anything for the better. It will be just like changing poison into medicine.”

• Nichiren Daishonin states: "One's voice when chanting the daimoku penetrates all of the lands in the ten directions. Although our voice may be small, when we put it into the great sound of the daimoku, there is no place in the major world system that it does not reach." --Nichiren

Daishonin (Gosho Zenshu, p 808) (Seikyo Times, 12/1995, p. 25)

Prayer is the basis of faith and the foundation of Buddhism. One’s life-condition is not determined by appearances or position. What are we praying for? How are we praying? A person’s state of life is expressed in his or her prayer. Therefore, I would like you to become people who pray with a broad and deep resolve. To pray to accomplish kosen-rufu, to chant seriously for everyone’s happiness—such prayer encompasses one’s own happiness. Those who pray in this way will amass tremendous good fortune. A bodhisattva vows to save others before seeking to save himself. Foremost are prayers and action to save others from suffering. This is the practice of a bodhisattva. I always pray earnestly for the good health and happiness of all of the members around the world. Then, firmly determined to make this come true, I devote myself unstintingly to encourage them. (President Ikeda, Conversation with Youth #9, Nov. 1994, Seikyo Times, p.53)

As you crave food when hungry, seek water when thirsty, long to see a lover, beg for medicine when ill, or as a beautiful woman desires powder and rouge, so should you put your faith in the Lotus Sutra. If you do not, you will regret it later. (WND-1, 965; Persecution by Sword and Staff)

Now, if you wish to attain Buddhahood, you have only to lower the banners of your arrogance, cast aside the staff of your anger, and devote yourself exclusively to the one vehicle of the Lotus Sutra. Worldly fame and profit are mere baubles of your present existence, and arrogance and prejudice are ties that will fetter you in a future one. Ah, you should be ashamed of them! And you should fear them, too! (WND-1, 58,59; Questions and Answers on Embracing the Lotus Sutra)

“Lack of faith is the basic failing that causes a person to fall into hell.” (WND-1, 60; Questions and Answers on Embracing the Lotus Sutra)

“Single-mindedly chant Nam-myoho-renge-kyo and urge others to do the same; that will remain as the only memory of your present life in this human world. Nam-myoho-renge-kyo, Nam-myoho-renge-kyo.” (WND-1, 60; Questions and Answers on Embracing the Lotus Sutra)

What is called faith is nothing unusual. Faith means putting one's trust in the Lotus Sutra, Shakyamuni, Many Treasures, the Buddhas and bodhisattvas of the ten directions, and the heavenly gods and benevolent deities, and chanting Nam-myoho-renge-kyo as a woman cherishes her husband, as a man lays down his life for his wife, as parents refuse to abandon their children, or as a child refuses to leave its mother. (WND-1, 1036;The Meaning of Faith)

The prayers of one earnest person are enough to contain, subdue and drive away the devilish functions that run rampant in the land. Putting prayer first is just as important when we wish to change our own karma. We must pray with a determination that shakes the universe; we must pray with all our might. When we follow this fundamental path, our all-out efforts will bear magnificent fruit (President Ikeda, World Tribune Nov. 7, 1994, p. 5)
My Treasures Are the Gohonzon, President Toda, and Sincerity

(SGI President Ikeda’s speech, April 3, 1998, World Tribune, page 10)

President Toda always said, “If I ask Daisaku then I know I don't have to worry.” “When Daisaku's involved, victory is certain.” This oneness of mentor and disciple is the essence of the Soka Gakkai.

Nichiren Daishonin and President Toda are constantly in my thoughts. The Gohonzon, President Toda, and sincerity are my “three treasures.” I have won through sincerity. Striving to lead the most upright life, while enduring the harshest criticism and abuse, I have won as a human being. From the standpoint of Buddhism, from the standpoint of the three existences of past, present, and future, I am confident that I am the greatest victor.

Buddhism is not about leading a self-centered existence. It we do not base lives on the Law, we are not practicing Buddhism. The great German writer Friedrich von Schiller writes, “The brave man thinks upon himself the last.” This is analogous to the spirit of not begrudging one’s life taught in the Lotus Sutra. This means treasuring the Law more highly than one’s life. The Law and kosen-rufu are central. The SGI, therefore, is extremely important. When you have the spirit of “I want to do something for kosen-rufu,” benefit is forthcoming. But if there are those who think, “I’m going to have the SGI do something for me,” they are abusing the world of faith. They are in the life-condition of Hell. This, indeed, was the mind-set of all who betrayed us in the past.

Three eternal principles of the Soka Gakkai (Why we practice and why we strive to help others practice)

1. Faith for a harmonious family

2. Faith to enable each person to become happy

3. Faith to surmount obstacles.

“Our aim is solely for each individual to actualize the three principles Mr. Toda left us, by achieving a harmonious family life, personal happiness and an indomitable self.

I ask all the leaders here today to always bear in mind why we practice the Daishonin’s Buddhism. I call on you to work hard to ensure that everyone receives great benefit through faith, that not a single person falls by the wayside. That is my greatest wish.”

The New Human Revolution, Vol-5 Chap-6 “Lion”

Significance of the SGI Colors (October 3, 1988 World Tribune)

• Red — harmony, victory, the sun

• Yellow — seeking, glory, and intellect

• Blue — fortune, peace, and kosen-rufu

The following three traits summarize the character and mentality of the Bodhisattvas of the Earth:

• To be rigorously strict toward oneself, like a sharp autumn frost.

• To be warm and embracing towards others, like a soft spring breeze.

• To be uncompromising when confronting evil, like a lion monarch.

(1999 Peace Proposal, Faith Into Action (FIA), p. 92)

•Date: Tue, 16 Jan 2001 23:47:18 -0800

From: "Danny Nagashima"

SGI General Director Wada attended a Southern California Zone Leaders meeting this evening, held at the Redondo Beach Performing Arts Center. The auditorium was over flowing with more than 1700 excited and happy members. Following the video, Mr. Wada shared final encouragement. He emphasized that religion is for the sake of the people, whereas in the past, people were servants of religion. President Ikeda has mentioned a number of occasions that in the 21st century, education, politics, religion, etc. should serve the people.

Mr. Wada also shared his experience of his days as a youth. He said that in 1955, he received guidance from President Ikeda. At that time, President Ikeda gave him two points:

1. Never leave the organization and

2. Find a great senior in faith.

The Secret to Success

(World Tribune, May 5, 2000, p. 1; part of President Ikeda’s March 24, 2000 speech at the 44th Soka Gakkai Headquarters Leaders Meeting, held at the Tokyo Makiguchi Hall, Hachioji, Japan)

Nothing is as strong or as deep as the prayers of our women’s division members. To pray until victory is achieved, to pray with all one’s might — this is the spirit of the women’s division. The shining crown of victory adorns all who have such faith.

To pray through every problem, to pray fully with all of your being — this is the secret of success. [emphasis added]

On the Path Toward Absolute Happiness (SGI President Ikeda’s guidance at a conference held April 29, 2000 in Tokyo with SGI representatives from around the world; World Tribune, 5-19-2000, p. 1)

Prayer can fundamentally transform your life [The Secret to Human Revolution]

Let me share some words of wisdom from some of the great thinkers of the world that might serve to spur our advance. Thomas Paine, whose work greatly influenced the American Revolution, writes in his famous treatise Common Sense, “It is not in numbers but in unity, that our great strength lies.”

Unity is strength. In the realm of faith, people who cannot join hands and cooperate with others undermine the harmonious unity of the community of believers. This is the most serious of offenses. Consequently, those who cause such disharmony will experience no benefit.

The German poet and dramatist Johann Wolfgang van Goethe writes in Faust, “With little men go little acts, / Among the great a small one grows.” We must take on big challenges. That is why I hope you will not seek to accumulate petty, minor benefit, but great benefit. I hope you will not restrict your focus to this little island-country of Japan, but allow your gaze to encompass the great, wide world.

Mahatma Gandhi says, “Those who will not do it, although they appreciate the truth, will deserve to be called cowards.” We must act on what we know to be right and true. We know the importance of discussion meetings, gongyo and the struggle for kosen-rufu. If we fail to carry them out, we are cowards. Gandhi also says that there is no greater crime than cowardice.

Let me introduce another remark by Thomas Paine. “My country is the world, and my religion is to do good.” Today, the world is our arena — the world is the stage upon which kosen-rufu is unfolding.

Abraham Lincoln says: “Let none falter, who thinks he is right, and we may succeed.” “I am a slow walker, but I never walk back.” We must stick to our ideals to the end. Let us say, for example, that you have a friend who just does not seem willing to accept Buddhism. He attended a discussion meeting with you, but he does not want to practice. That is fine. What matters is that you keep moving forward in your practice, letting nothing set you back.

Then, I always keep a copy of Ralph Waldo Emerson’s collected works close to my desk. Mr. Makiguchi and second Soka Gakkai president Josei Toda were both fond of the American writer. Emerson writes in “Spiritual Laws,” “Never was a sincere word utterly lost.” Sincere words, words filled with conviction — they are the key to victory. We do not need go exaggerate, plot or scheme.

Finally, let me share some more words by Lincoln: “We proposed to give all a chance; and we expected the weak to grow stronger, the ignorant, wiser; and all better, and happier together.” “For all to become happy together!” — let us advance with this spirit.

And let us meet again next month, in victory. I pray for your health and long life and for your success in all endeavors. I am sending you daimoku.

I hope you will pray, too.

Pray that instead of devils or negative, destructive forces infiltrating your being, Brahma (Jpn Bonten), Shakra (Jpn Taishaku), and the gods of the Sun and the Moon — the positive, protective forces of the universe — will enter your life! Pray that they will enter the lives of all members in your region and the entire membership of the SGI, as well. If you do this, your strength will multiply a hundredfold, a thousandfold. With such prayer, you will realize a fundamental transformation in the very depths of your life. This is the secret to achieving your human revolution. [emphasis added]

In one of his commentaries, 26th high priest Nichikan writes that the Daishonin’s life manifests in our lives. [In his “Commentary on ‘The Entity of the Mystic Law,’” Nichikan states, “Through the power of the Mystic Law, we manifest the life of the Daishonin within ourselves.”]

This is the ultimate truth of faith in the Mystic Law. Nichikan says that the life of the Daishonin manifests itself in the life of each of us. That is why we will never be defeated. Let us move forward with this invincible conviction.

Thank you for being here today.

Those Who Devote Themselves to Kosen-rufu Receive the “Benefit of Protection”

(Dialogue on the Lotus Sutra, #50, “Dharani (26th chapter), Living Buddhism, July 2000, p. 35)

The Unfathomable Power of Daimoku

Haruo Suda: He [Shakyamuni] says that by accepting and upholding even a single verse of the Lotus Sutra, we will gain the same benefit as we would by making offerings to an infinite number of Buddhas. When you stop to think about it, this is remarkable.

President Ikeda: How is this possible? It’s because the Lotus Sutra is the source of enlightenment of all the infinite numbers of Buddhas. In particular, the source of the enlightenment of all Buddhas is the implicit teaching of Nam-myoho-renge-kyo. This daimoku is the sutra’s undiluted and pure essence.

Takanori Endo: The Daishonin’s Buddhism is truly incredible.

President Ikeda: Therefore, we mustn’t try to gauge the power of daimoku with our limited state of life, thinking, “This must be all there is.” The sutra says that the benefit of daimoku is beyond even the Buddha to fathom. For us to suppose that we understand its full scope is nothing short of arrogance. If we underestimate the infinite power of benefit of the Gohonzon owing to weak faith, then we will be only able to tap a minute portion of the Gohonzon’s power.

Speaking at Toshima Public Hall in Tokyo, second Soka Gakkai President Josei Toda would often say on numerous occasions: “If the benefit that I have received is as great as this hall, then the benefit that all of you have received is no more than the size of my little finger.”

Japan today is facing a difficult economic situation. For precisely that reason, I hope all of our members will acquire immense benefit now. I would like to see each one gain inexhaustible good fortune. When times are good, anyone can do well. It is when times get tough that we can see what we are made of. That is when our faith is put to the test. It is important that we patiently strive to create hope.

Dedication to Kosen-rufu Brings Forth Incredible Life Force (p.47-48)

President Ikeda: At any rate, there is a fundamental difference in someone who strives to protect the SGI for the sake of kosen-rufu and someone who tries to use it for personal gain. It’s incredible just how much energy, wisdom and compassion well forth from our lives and how much the Buddhist gods go to work for us when we truly stand up for kosen-rufu. … The important thing is to stand alone and chant daimoku with the pledge, “I will accomplish kosen-rufu without fail.” We need to pray to the Gohonzon, “Please allow me to fight with the intensity of a charging demon.” With such prayer, we cannot fail to manifest power. We cannot fail to win. No matter how difficult the circumstances, one who stands up in earnest for kosen-rufu will absolutely receive the protection of the Buddhist gods. It is the “Dharani” chapter that teaches such passionate confidence in faith. [emphasis added]

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Wisdom for Modern Life by Daisaku IkedaSunday, January 29, 2012:

2012-01-30T12:34:00.000+08:00

It may seem perfectly all right to put ourselves and our own wishes first, to simply follow the dictates of our emotions and cravings, but the truth is that there is nothing more unreliable than our own mind. Life doesn't always go like clockwork and things will not necessarily turn out as we hope or plan. Consequently, Nichiren frequently stressed: "You should become the master of your mind, not let your mind master you." We mustn't allow ourselves to be ruled by a self-centered mind. Rather, we have to discipline our mind and gain mastery over it.
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5s / TPM Jingle

2011-09-08T08:50:00.002+08:00

We started to bring it on
With our efforts to improve it all
Prepare ourselves for even more
Difficult challenges that we knew
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Implementing the process of
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President Aquino's SONA 2011

2011-08-15T10:18:00.000+08:00

I have always been behind on what's current in the country and in the
whole world. i seldom watch television and listen to news and other
current affairs information. or i just don't really mind
these things at all.

but being behind of what's happening is, i think, one of the worst things
that could happen to some.. and it happens all the time-- to me.

so i changed my attitude and tried hard to go and see the real world;
and i tried to stop absorbing myself ONLY to my workplace..

good thing that i could update myself in all happenings through the
internet.. it sometimes come in late but i am happy to know and
read updates and etc.. even at school, i can have information about
what is happening lately and i am eager to know more..

i also happen to read the President's SONA, which is one
of the big events in every term of the leader of the country..
while i was reading it,i don't know, but i could not
help crying.

i would like to quote the last paragraphs of his SONA..

here goes: ""Let us end the culture of negativism; let us uplift our fellow Filipinos at every opportunity. Why are there people who enjoy finding fault in our country, who find it so hard—as though it were a sin—to say something nice? Can we even remember the last time we praised a fellow Filipino?
Let us stop pulling our fellow man down. Let us put an end to our crab mentality. Let us make the effort to recognize the good that is being done.
If you see something right, do not think twice—praise it. If you see a policeman directing traffic, coatless beneath the rain—go to him and say, “Thank you.”
If you fall sick, and you see your nurse caring for you, when she could easily be treating foreigners for a higher salary—say, “Thank you.”
Before you leave school for home, approach your teacher who chose to invest in your future—say, “Thank you.”
If you chance upon your local leader on a road that was once riddled with holes, but is now smooth and sturdy—go to him and say, “Thank you, for the change you have brought.”
And so, to the Filipino nation, my Bosses who have steered us toward this day: Thank you very much for the change that is now upon us.
The Philippines and the Filipino people are, finally, truly alive.""

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i am very hopeful for all the Filipinos.
there is always transition.
there needs to be change..

... Nice article to ponder..

2011-08-09T20:46:00.000+08:00

¬20 Questions That Could Change Your Life
Finding the answers starts with posing the right questions—and Martha Beck has 20 to get you started.
By Martha Beck
O, The Oprah Magazine | From the February 2011 issue of O, The Oprah Magazine

1. What questions should I be asking myself?
At first I thought asking yourself what you should be asking yourself was redundant. It isn't. Without this question, you wouldn't ask any others, so it gets top billing. It creates an alert, thoughtful mind state, ideal for ferreting out the information you most need in every situation. Ask it frequently.

2. Is this what I want to be doing?
This very moment is, always, the only moment in which you can make changes. Knowing which changes are best for you comes, always, from assessing what you feel. Ask yourself many times every day if you like what you're doing. If the answer is no, start noticing what you'd prefer. Thus begins the revolution.

3. Why worry?
These two words, considered sincerely, can radically reconfigure the landscape of your mind. Worry rarely leads to positive action; it's just painful, useless fear about hypothetical events, which scuttles happiness rather than ensuring it. Some psychologists say that by focusing on gratitude, we can shut down the part of the brain that worries. It actually works!

4. Why do I like {cupcakes} more than I like {people}?
Feel free to switch out the words in brackets: You may like TV more than exercise, or bad boys more than nice guys, or burglary more than reading. Whatever the particulars, every woman has something she likes more than the somethings she's supposed to like. But forcing "virtues"—trying to like people more than cupcakes—drives us to vices that offer false freedom from oppression. Stop trying to like the things you don't like, and many vices will disappear on their own.

5. How do I want the world to be different because I lived in it?
Your existence is already a factor in world history—now, what sort of factor do you want it to be? Maybe you know you're here to create worldwide prosperity, a beautiful family, or one really excellent bagel. If your impressions are more vague, keep asking this question. Eventually you'll glimpse clearer outlines of your destiny. Live by design, not by accident.

6. How do I want to be different because I lived in this world?
In small ways or large, your life will change the world—and in small ways or large, the world will change you. What experiences do you want to have during your brief sojourn here? Make a list. Make a vision board. Make a promise. This won't control your future, but it will shape it.

7. Are {vegans} better people?
Again, it doesn't have to be vegans; the brackets are for you to fill in. Substitute the virtue squad that makes you feel worst about yourself, the one you'll never have the discipline to join, whether it's ultra-marathoners or mothers who never raise their voices. Whatever group you're asking about, the answer to this question is no.

8. What is my body telling me?
As I often say, my mind is a two-bit whore—by which I mean that my self-justifying brain, like any self-justifying brain, will happily absorb beliefs based on biases, ego gratification, magical thinking, or just plain error. The body knows better. It's a wise, capable creature. It recoils from what's bad for us, and leans into what's good. Let it.

9. How much junk could a chic chick chuck if a chic chick could chuck junk?
I believe this question was originally posed by Lao Tzu, who also wrote, "To become learned, each day add something. To become enlightened, each day drop something." Face it: You'd be better off without some of your relationships, many of your possessions, and most of your thoughts. Chuck your chic-chick junk, chic chick. Enlightenment awaits.

10. What's so funny?
Adults tend to put this question to children in a homicidal-sounding snarl, which is probably why as you grew up, your laughter rate dropped from 400 times a day (for toddlers) to the grown-up daily average of 15. Regain your youth by laughing at every possible situation. Then, please, tell us what's funny—about everyday life, about human nature, even about pain and fear. We'll pay you anything.

11. Where am I wrong?
This might well be the most powerful question on our list—as Socrates believed, we gain our first measure of intelligence when we first admit our own ignorance. Your ego wants you to avoid noticing where you may have bad information or unworkable ideas. But you'll gain far more capability and respect by asking where you're wrong than by insisting you're right.

12. What potential memories am I bartering, and is the profit worth the price?
I once read a story about a world where people sold memories the way we can sell plasma. The protagonist was an addict who'd pawned many memories for drugs but had sworn never to sell his memory of falling in love. His addiction won. Afterward he was unaware of his loss, lacking the memory he'd sold. But for the reader, the trade-off was ghastly to contemplate. Every time you choose social acceptance over your heart's desires, or financial gain over ethics, or your comfort zone over the adventure you were born to experience, you're making a similar deal. Don't.

13. Am I the only one struggling not to {fart} during {yoga}?
I felt profoundly liberated when this issue was raised on Saturday Night Live's "Weekend Update."Not everyone does yoga, but SNL reminded me that everyone dreads committing some sort of gaffe. Substitute your greatest shame-fear: crying at work, belching in church, throwing up on the prime minister of Japan. Then know you aren't alone. Everyone worries about such faux pas, and many have committed them (well, maybe not the throwing up on PMs). Accepting this is a bold step toward mental health and a just society.

14. What do I love to practice?
Some psychologists believe that no one is born with any particular talent and that all skill is gained through practice. Studies have shown that masters are simply people who've practiced a skill intensely for 10,000 hours or more. That requires loving—not liking, loving—what you do. If you really want to excel, go where you're passionate enough to practice.

15. Where could I work less and achieve more?
To maximize time spent practicing your passions, minimize everything else. These days you can find machines or human helpers to assist with almost anything. Author Timothy Ferriss "batches" job tasks into his famous "four-hour workweek." My client Cindy has an e-mail ghostwriter. Another client, Angela, hired an assistant in the Philippines who flawlessly tracks her schedule and her investments. Get creative with available resources to find more time in your life and life in your time.

16. How can I keep myself absolutely safe?
Ask this question just to remind yourself of the answer: You can't. Life is inherently uncertain. The way to cope with that reality is not to control and avoid your way into a rigid little demi-life, but to develop courage. Doing what you long to do, despite fear, will accomplish this.

17. Where should I break the rules?
If everyone kept all the rules, we'd still be practicing cherished traditions like child marriage, slavery, and public hangings. The way humans become humane is by assessing from the heart, rather than the rule book, where the justice of a situation lies. Sometimes you have to break the rules around you to keep the rules within you.

18. So say I lived in that fabulous house in Tuscany, with untold wealth, a gorgeous, adoring mate, and a full staff of servants...then what?
We can get so obsessed with acquiring fabulous lives that we forget to live. When my clients ask themselves this question, they almost always discover that their "perfect life" pastimes are already available. Sharing joy with loved ones, spending time in nature, finding inner peace, writing your novel, plotting revenge—you can do all these things right now. Begin!

19. Are my thoughts hurting or healing?
Your situation may endanger your life and limbs, but only your thoughts can endanger your happiness. Telling yourself a miserable mental story about your circumstances creates suffering. Telling yourself a more positive and grateful story, studies show, increases happiness. Wherever you are, whatever you're doing, choose thoughts that knit your heart together, rather than tear it apart.

20. Really truly: Is this what I want to be doing?
It's been several seconds since you asked this. Ask it again. Not to make yourself petulant or frustrated—just to see if it's possible to choose anything, and I mean any little thing, that would make your present experience more delightful. Thus continues the revolution.
“Busyness” is a state of mind.
Most of us judge how busy we are by how much we have to do. When there are too many things to do, we think we're busy, and when there isn't much to do, it feels like we're not busy at all. But in fact, we can feel busy when there isn't that much to do, and we can feel relaxed even when there's a lot going on. The states of "busy" and "not busy" aren't defined by how many things there are to do. Contrary to popular opinion, there is no such thing as multitasking; the brain can tend to only one thing at a time. Being too busy or not being busy is an interpretation of our activity. Busy-ness is a state of mind, not a fact. No matter how much or how little we're doing, we're always just doing what we're doing, simply living this one moment of our lives.

That moment may seem long or short. Time is an internal, not external, reality. Have you noticed that half an hour in the dentist's chair lasts longer than half an hour at a fun dinner party with friends? And five minutes waiting on hold on the phone passes more slowly than five minutes watching a movie. Time is how we live it, not what's measured by the clock (after all, the watch was invented fairly recently, in the 16th century). To be sure, our world operates on clock time, which is convenient and necessary; how else would we make it to that dentist's appointment or dinner party? But the clock is supposed to be working for us, not the other way around. If we feel too busy, we've mistaken a feeling for an objective reality and are held captive to that reality. It needn't be that way.

2010-11-22T10:38:00.002+08:00

There is a Russian proverb that says: "It is no use to blame the looking glass if your face is awry." Likewise, one's happiness or unhappiness is entirely the reflection of the balance of good and bad causes accumulated in one's life. No one can blame others for his misfortunes. In the world of faith, it is necessary to realize this all the more clearly.

Daisaku Ikeda

annabel lee

2010-09-08T15:28:00.002+08:00

It was many and many a year ago,
In a kingdom by the sea,
That a maiden there lived whom you may know
By the name of ANNABEL LEE;
And this maiden she lived with no other thought
Than to love and be loved by me.

I was a child and she was a child,
In this kingdom by the sea;
But we loved with a love that was more than love-
I and my Annabel Lee;
With a love that the winged seraphs of heaven
Coveted her and me.

And this was the reason that, long ago,
In this kingdom by the sea,
A wind blew out of a cloud, chilling
My beautiful Annabel Lee;
So that her highborn kinsman came
And bore her away from me,
To shut her up in a sepulchre
In this kingdom by the sea.

The angels, not half so happy in heaven,
Went envying her and me-
Yes!- that was the reason (as all men know,
In this kingdom by the sea)
That the wind came out of the cloud by night,
Chilling and killing my Annabel Lee.

But our love it was stronger by far than the love
Of those who were older than we-
Of many far wiser than we-
And neither the angels in heaven above,
Nor the demons down under the sea,
Can ever dissever my soul from the soul
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee.

For the moon never beams without bringing me dreams
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;
And the stars never rise but I feel the bright eyes
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;
And so, all the night-tide, I lie down by the side
Of my darling- my darling- my life and my bride,
In the sepulchre there by the sea,
In her tomb by the sounding sea.

Edgar Allan Poe

victorious drama

2010-06-23T11:28:00.004+08:00

Good evening everyone. My name is Jen. I am from the Philippines. I just came here in the US last October… The struggle I had before coming here was unbelievable and it all became believable, that as you can see, I am now standing in front of all of you.. So please allow me to share my experience..

My mom was the one who first chanted NMRK way back home in 1990. Since I was a child, my mom always took me to meetings and I have grown up with it. My faith really developed because of my training as a member of the drum & bugle corps –or as what you also call the fife & drum corps. Since I grew up in a well-off family- everything was provided by my parents. But I wasn’t really able to appreciate everything I had because I thought that it was normal to lead such a life. But it wasn’t. That in 2001, our family business got bankrupt; left us with nothing- our properties, our house, car, everything, - they were all gone. My parents decided to come to the US primarily for financial reasons because we had no source of income there plus the fact of having 7 siblings in the family…

Our eldest sister stood as our mother, father and as our guardian. Me- being a father’s girl, took me a whole lot of time to adjust to our new lifestyle. I was not really used to living a simple life- but despite all those obstacles that we have had, we never felt discouraged in our practice instead we took it as a challenge and all the more deepened our faith in the Gohonzon…

A life without your mom and dad at home is difficult. It’s like they taught us to really ride the bike on our own, but with our helmets on. We could only talk to our parents through the phone, since they don’t know how to use the computer at that time. But now they’re learning. (**smiles) Our parents cannot see all of us everyday growing so beautifully. All we have at home as our second parents is the Gakkai. Because of this kind of connection that we have in our organization, we were able to go through everything. We were able to make our parents proud!

Deep within me is a dream, a desire to come here to be with our parents, without even knowing how I could get here because I know it’s too hard and it would also take time. Ever since my parents came here, I have always been chanting to the Gohonzon that in time, I could be with them here in the US. That was what my heart yearned and I just wrote it down on my yearly targets- I did that for 9 years. The Gohonzon knows what’s inside of you, what’s inside your heart. It is really a reflection of your life. And indeed, no prayers are left unanswered.

When I was still in the Phil, I did my best to finish my studies. I finished High school; I got a degree in college while surmounting every obstacle I had during my school days. I really couldn’t quite imagine that I was able to finish college in four years straight. After I’ve graduated, I haven’t thought of coming here yet because I thought it was really impossible. So I chanted a lot and fulfilled my childhood dream first – which is to work in a bank.
And I did it. I did not have a hard time applying to the bank of my first choice. I came to realize – that the things that had happened were the things that I kept in mind and wanted it to happen. I knew things would happen in its own time—so during my stay home, I really made the most out of it because I know I won’t be staying there for long. After I was appointed as Vice Chapter YWD Chief, I chanted to realize my mission as YWD for my members. I enjoyed doing Gakkai activities- house to house, general meetings and everything- I felt happy. I felt joy to be with members. I am happy to say that I have no regrets and I just fully know that I had made the most out of my stay in the Philippines. All my life I have dedicated 100% in Gakkai, school, work and family as much as possible…

Then came the unbelievable yet believable part… Just early last year, they filed a petition but I didn't take it seriously.. I just chanted for it but didn’t really think about it. Then July came, my petition was approved. So I got a visa interview yet it was quite hard since I was caught up in the middle of either keeping or losing my new found job for it was really my dream- i just didn’t want to give it up. But still I just chanted and chanted. September 1 was my interview, and fortunately, I got approved and planned right away to fly all the way here as soon as I can. Although I felt excited to come--- but with the thought of moving here, I felt that I just can’t leave everything behind.. That decision wasn't easy for me because I love my job and I don't want to leave my members there, my friends, my family, my life I had way back home. But again this was what I wanted. So I stick to the decision to really move here and be with my loved ones – my parents and with my new parents, my new family- to start a new life here. AND NOW I AM HERE!!! Everything just happened really fast.

My first 3months were not at all easy as I thought it would be. I have to face unexpected things. I really have to face everything. I did it through my Gakkai activities here. Even without friends, I always went to NYCC to chant in my free time. I never lose connection with the organization--It is great that we have a Filipino group and was so thankful to Tita Maria for inviting me to join this district-Union Square. As Ikeda Sensei said that to encourage one’s self is the hardest, but I was able to continue my practice, even if I wasn't used to attending meetings alone.

I learned to apply the stand alone spirit and have the courage to face my fears. As I’ve said the first 3 months wasn’t easy- I felt Homesick and all. Sometimes, I felt confined and too absorbed with my weaknesses..But when I started attending ROCK THE ERA, it woke me up, especially that I got the chance to join the fife & drum and be able to play the fife-- which has always been my passion (char!!!). I found myself looking forward to practices and meetings because of the encouragement it gives me plus the fact that I could meet new people and find new friends. This also gave me strength to face head on all my challenges here. That there’s a wide horizon out there.. I am the one causing my own limitations. Last January, I did try applying a job and just after the January rock the era kick off meeting. That day after- I got a job and was asked to start right away!! Rock the era is a big part of me now. I was able to further develop myself, realize fully my potential and show my confidence through playing the fife.. It feels like I am now living the same life I had in the Philippines but with a BIG difference. I am adopting the NYC lifestyle which is always on the go!!!

I am still working and have been receiving continuous benefit for my legal status here. Just last Friday, I got my approval for my resident status. (pakpak!!!!) That same day I was about to tell Amy that I could not do the experience tonight. But I just got to show my appreciation. And now here I am telling all of you how great Nam Myoho Renge Kyo is!!

I'm still struggling a lot right now especially in my relationship but I just continue to chant and be confident with my daimoku. I am still going through a lot of things emotionally, but I am not discouraged and the more I feel weak the more I do daimoku. I believed and am very determined that I will create my own victorious drama here in the US together with my mentor Daisaku Ikeda. I will continue to chant for courage to never be defeated.. I will win.

Personally, I realized many things from this experience. It was like a turning point for me, to wake up from the reality that life isn’t a bed of roses; that we really have to challenge, especially now that I came here. I've learned how time flies so fast –that it’s useless to spend a moment of your life idly. I’ve learned to understand life more deeply.

I also came to appreciate everything that had happened in my life. I really appreciate the Gohonzon-- it’s the greatest treasure I have.

That is why I always put my best effort in everything I do because I know that no effort for Kosen-rufu is ever wasted. For My Conviction: to develop indestructible faith, and to strive more in my practice, most especially in doing shakubuku.

As President Ikeda said and I quote “EVERYTHING that happens in the world of faith has deep meaning and value. Please be convinced that nothing is meaningless in the realm of faith. A life spent day-dreaming about, “If only I didn’t have this problem….”, is a life of failure. In contrast, one who continually makes constructive efforts, approaching things from the standpoint of, “What can I do to overcome these circumstances and turn them into a source of value and victory?”, is a winner.”
Lastly: As the Gosho states and I quote, “Nam-myoho-renge-kyo is the greatest of all joys.” Nam-myoho-renge-kyo is the fundamental law that moves the universe. It enables you to reveal the most joyful, dynamic condition of life. Because we chant this great daimoku everyday, we can always live with joyful vitality. Therefore, we should naturally live our lives youthfully, no matter what.”

Daghan salamat sa tanan.

encouraging words from my mentor

2010-06-22T12:02:00.002+08:00

EVERYTHING that happens in the world of faith has deep meaning and value. Please be convinced that nothing is meaningless in the realm of faith.

EVERYDAY I offer earnest prayers for your happiness, good health and success. You each have your respective place of mission; you are all extremely precious children of the Buddha who are dedicated to the cause of kosen-rufu. I hope that while fostering cordial and warm relations among yourselves, you will advance as good citizens of your country.

A life spent day-dreaming about, “I only I didn’t have this problem….”, is a life of failure. In contrast, one who continually makes constructive efforts, approaching things from the standpoint of, “What can I do to overcome these circumstances and turn them into a source of value and victory?”, is a winner.

TRUE concern for others manifests itself as unconditional friendship. To be considerate means that the more someone is suffering, the more love you show them. It gives you the courage to help another stand up. And it means recognizing another person’s unhappiness for what it is, trying to understand and share their suffering. Consideration is training ourselves in the art of encouraging others.

OUR voice praying earnestly for the sake of kosen-rufu – that in itself is the voice of the bodhisattva and the voice of the Buddha. It is indeed a case of “our voice doing the Buddha’s work”. President Daisaku Ikeda, Soka Gakkai International

(taken from http://www.dailyguidance.blogspot.com/)

2010-02-09T15:04:00.002+08:00

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2009-08-08T14:58:00.005+08:00

"Becoming The Person I Don't Want"

i have been so absorbed with my work lately.. or not lately? always. i get to deal with lots of people... hmmm, well, different kinds of people.. i used to have a lot of patience, now i easily get angry and disappointed even with just the smallest things..
years ago, ( oh yeah!! "YEEEARRS AGO"..) i went to a bookstore and tried to find some special paper.. after, i went out to wait for somebody and found myself standing, looking at the many people walking in front of me and instantly realized what a small world i am in.. that i still have a lot of things to learn, meet, see and experience.. my daily life is becoming more like a routine.. you get to smile and greet and do what you have to do... go in , go out. just like that.. i feel i want to go out. or find another job?... or is it a bad decision to make? i want to explore more.. and see what i can do more..
i am becoming the person i don't want.. i have read a phrase from the book entitled "Life's Little Instruction Book"
and i quote: "be decisive even if sometimes you'll be wrong".. i just feel that this is the hardest thing to do for now.. i am the type to just go with the flow.. becoming so decisive makes me irritable and bluntly inconsiderate.. and i don't like it..
i argue with the people i hate to disagree; talk back to people i hate to listen.. and this isn't me at all.. because every time i do this, i feel embarrassed thinking if i hurt those people.. i do not like it at all.. i further realize that this is the main reason why i want to escape my job and go out.. and lead a more hard life? hmmm, this is really quite difficult for me to handle.. or do i just have to continue dealing with it? doesn't make any difference at all, right?

2009-07-08T13:44:00.003+08:00

i am counting and counting the days.. looks like i have been waiting for nothing...
should i wait until December comes?
i have wanted to talk about discipline. i guess.. i should really wait until December...

2009-04-22T14:46:00.000+08:00

just checkin' out my caffeine level.........haha!!

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2009-04-08T10:11:00.002+08:00

You Are Level-Headed and Trustworthy

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.

You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries.

You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.

And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.

You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.

You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.

Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.

You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.

At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.

You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.

You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

2009-03-20T17:03:00.000+08:00

Being wise and being happy are in close proximity." This is an insight by Jean Jacque Rousseau of France. if we are unwise, that makes us miserable. The purpose of women is to become wise victors of happiness.

President Toda gave guidance to the Young women that our heart should not be shortsighted, only seeing what is before our very eyes. We should not be farsighted either, only chasing after ideals. Our views should neither be confused nor agonized either, being attached by the complicated contradictions of reality. In life, we must have a correct view. This is what Buddhism expounds. Faith, which is the practice of Buddhism, allows us to correct the perspective of our hearts. It is Buddhist study based on faith that enables us to create and polish this correct view.

Excerpt from Essay: The Light of the Century of Humanity - the Young Rising Sun of the "Century of Women" by Daisaku Ikeda, Nov. 11, 2004

2008-05-07T11:57:00.004+08:00

LABOR DAY OUT

oh hi. i didn't notice i was away too long to visit and post something in my blog.
oh well, yeah, here it is...

labor day out!! hahaha, my friends just can't stop
inviting me over for a swim.. we met at around 2:30, only few came, still, we
just enjoyed our "bonding" time together.. stress-free, hassle-free day out!! haha!!

we just ate chips and drank some cola.. and ate sliced BREAD!! and it rained hard and we stayed in the pool until the rain stopped.

^-^ i had a great day.

F.R. David - Sahara Night

2007-06-29T12:06:00.001+08:00

Sahara night Sahara night
Spirit of the sands
On vast and empty land
Where no one belongs
When the blue gets dark
At the failing lights
Between moon and sun
In the desert fields
Fever's so high
Makes me want to shout
Sahara night

Listen to the wind
Bringing into your ears
Music from afar
You may hear the sounds
Of a tribal dance
Coming from the heights
In the desert fields
Fever's so high
Makes me wanna shout
Sahara night

And stars screen
The awful mystery of space
With its weight of fear
I now realise
The hold it has on me

I love to watch the sky
Smiling at the stars
Laying on the ground
Gentle is the breeze
Wish it never cease
Soothing my mind
In the desert fields
Fever so high
Makes me wanna shout
Sahara night

Oh, Sahara night
Makes me feel
Makes me feel
So right

2006-11-02T17:30:00.000+08:00

i'm missing pochie.. and hyagwapa... now..

2006-02-15T21:46:00.000+08:00

" in my dreams..."

2006-02-15T21:35:00.000+08:00

your movie star double is Drew Barrymore

A free spirit like you needs to be played by someone who knows what it's like to carve out her own niche. That's why Drew Barrymore would be great for the part. Whether she's starring in unique films like Riding in Cars With Boys and Ever After, or heading out into town with daring dates, Drew refuses to conform to Hollywood's mold for leading ladies. Like Drew, you have a unique outlook and passion that shines through everything you do. And if you're truly like Drew, you're not afraid to show everyone who you are.

Back in high school, were you the one listening to bands that others hadn't discovered yet, or branching out with political or fashion statements of your own? How about raising quirky questions that stumped your teachers? But now that you've grown up some, people are starting to value your individuality and your creative way of looking at the world. Or at least, they will soon. So who better to play you in the role of your life than Drew? Doesn't it seem she was made for the part?

2005-11-17T15:01:00.000+08:00

.... no use going back...

"lately, i feel i don't know what i want.. or somehow confused of something.. so what is it? so i want change... what change? no, change..so i want to hide... hide where? so i want the earth to open up and swallow me... that would be great!! but it would be bad..that would never happen.. so i want to go deep under the sea and just stay there..... impossible.. it's boring in the sea.. unless you're a fish... so i want to stay in my room.. and watch something or read something.. anything... it would be ok.. but too much... "
ever felt these? as if you just don't know what to do, where to go, what to think, what to find? this is boredom...... this is defeat... this is losing one's self.. "

2005-10-18T20:11:00.000+08:00

loving again

i remember the day
since you left me
i cried alone in my room
bringing back the thought of you
leaving me...

so much to say
just as you left me
your smile that's kept
in my memory
but now you're gone
and now i'm missing you...

if only i could
turn back the time
the time when i'm still
with you...

i'm afraid to love again
you've made a lot of
heartaches in me
can't you see?

i'm afraid to love again
things have fallen apart
but i know
that i don't want you to go

i remember the time
when i had you
the promises we've made
together
still kept in my heart

but now that you're gone
what's left is a memory
but i'm not finding another one
'coz somehow
you're still a part of me...

if only i could
bring back the time
the time when i'm still
with you...

i'm afraid to love again
you've made a lot of
heartaches in me
can't you see?

i'm afraid to love again
things have fallen apart
but i know
that i don't want you to go..

2005-09-08T12:20:00.000+08:00

"..Life isn't about keeping score. It's not about how many people call you and it's not about who you've dated, are dating or haven't dated at all. It isn't about who you've kissed, what sport you play, or which guy or girl likes you. It's not about your shoes or your hair or the color of your skin or where you live or go to school. In fact, it's not about grades, money, clothes, or colleges that accept you or not. Life isn't about if you have lots of friends, or if you are alone, and it's not about how accepted or unaccepted you are. Life just isn't about that.

But life is about who you love and who you hurt. It's about how you feel about yourself. It's about trust, happiness, and compassion. It's about sticking up for your friends and replacing inner hate with love. Life is about avoiding jealousy, overcoming ignorance and building confidence. It's about what you say and what you mean. It's about seeing people for who they are and not what they have. Most of all, it is about choosing to use your life to touch someone else's in a way that could never have been achieved otherwise. These choices are what life's about...."

-- taken from Chicken Soup for the Teenage Soul

2005-09-07T21:21:00.000+08:00

...amidst the pouring rain... everyday.. everynight.. i either cry or smile..but i usually smile.. recently, i couldn't appreciate the rain.. i always cry..oh! why is my heart so weak? i couldn't fight, i want to stand.. i couldn't decide, i want to speak.. though i may speak, i'm not sincere.. and so my heart is so weak.

2005-05-09T11:32:00.001+08:00

".....would like to ask him some stupid questions like "how do you know a genuine love from a love that is not?" and "boys will alwaya be boys... yes... but how do you reconcile that with girls will be girls?"

you will be able to know that love is genuine if you you would no longer be thinking of yourself, you would be willing to sacrifice your own happiness for the person you love, you also do stupid things which you don't normally do like "inserting your shirt for the first time after 9 long years" ;p, you also begin to watch those sappy corny love story movies that you used to hate before, when you're together with her you seem to paced your steps with her even though you don't usually walk that slow, before parting ways....you always look back once in a while and at the same time going your way, you hit each other with a friendly "slap", and you also begin to hum those "gross" love song classics (eewww), sometimes when you just see her you just got something in you that you wanna bite her shoulder (nanggigil) and many many more. this is based through experience... mark

so, it's basically the idea of expanding one's love feeling.. real love is when you are not selfish anymore.it is when you are not in the so called "in love" feeling. (is that it?) everyone has his/her own love-love concept.. what is ideal may not apply to everyone.. and as to girls will be girls- well, men can never live without women! pchan

2005-05-02T13:03:00.000+08:00

from mark...
first and foremost, when it comes to relationship, guys don't or never really count the time that has been spent on a relationship, what usually matters to us is the quality of the time spent with the girl whether it be months or years. now we proceed with the question "what then is quality time?". the answer is it depends, it may be the time when you both had an arguement wherein it reached to the point that you're both about to give up and then suddenly by a twist of faith one of you just had a changed of mind and decided to save the relationship; situations like this would really result to strenghtening your bonding. another example also would be in times when all the world is against you however you still stood by each other no matter what the consequences maybe.
"after 7 years together you're just going to throw everything away?!!!! grrrrrrrr". have you girls also asked yourself why the guy actually did this, maybe you've been cold over the last previous weeks or you may have been very busy over some useless activities which actually made us think also that we are no longer one of your primary concerns (yes KSP ang mga guys) and take note also that it is really never easy for us just to let go of a relationship, we are very aware that we are not handling things but handling humans that have feelings(maybe not all of us). but we are just considering a simple fact that if we are going to settle with the girl, she better be the right girl or we will be damned for all eternity spending the rest of our useless miserable lives with the wrong person, it's like a domino effect, when you're with the wrong person everything else also would be wrong like you're always on a foul mood, you seem to be living an empty life, your job sucks and finally it may even reached to the point wherein we are seeing a viscious evil hag in front of us where instead we should be seeing our bestfriend, our princess, our queen, our other half or the center of our universe. if we will stick to the basics Boys will really be boyz and alwayz be immature but our love is always genuine, it's just that most of the times it's the girl that changes and literally chokes us up.

2005-05-02T12:53:00.001+08:00

...Inside the world of girls inlove…

What’s in a boy and girl relationship? One might say that there should be “love”.. “I love you… and I love you”; “do you really love me?”; “prove to me that you love me”- these happen to be “powerful words” of expressing “love”.
What is love anyway?… well, it could be something like “this” for someone, and like “that” for other someone and “should be” for somebody.. Whatever it is, it usually depends on the “love” of a person.. anything can be ideal… Confusing, right?
They say girls are faithful when they love.. That is why, they cry and hurt the most when guys leave them for “other girls” or for good.. others may resort to more serious acts of “ending” one’s life.. however, wrong or not, it can happen to guys, too.. (or does it not?..)
How do girls love? It’s only either they like the guy too much or not too much.. and from there is the start of complications--- inside the world of girls inlove…
Consider the following situations:
Situation 1: For four years, a girl and a boy seemed happy with their relationship… and it happens, the boy found a new girlfriend before breaking up with the girl.. naturally, the girl was hurt and told the boy “it’s over..” . worse, the boy didn’t say anything and just displayed a let it be attitude.. so the girl and the boy broke up.. and it ended up with the girl crying the most..
Situation 2: For seven years, a girl and a boy seemed satisfied with their secret relationship. The girl likes the boy so much and vice versa. Then it happens that the boy left her for another girl and got the girl pregnant without a formal break up with the girl… and it ended up again with the girl crying the most..
Situation 3: A girl happens to like this boy very much.. and tried to do things to get the boy’s attention… but the boy just doesn’t like her.. the girl tried a lot of things just to please the boy, and then the boy found out that the girl likes him, but no reaction at all.. so the girl continues to get closer with the boy….. suddenly, she found out that the boy got a girlfriend already.. and it ended up again with the girl crying the most..
Situation 4: A girl really wanted to have a boyfriend.. but just couldn’t find one.. there are guys who seem to like her, but she just doesn’t like any of them.. the girl wanted to fall in love naturally.. and the guy that she wants to fall in love with hasn’t arrived yet..
And it ended up with the girl sighing the most..
Situation 5: A girl who happens to have a boyfriend.. and tried to find another boyfriend.. and befriended another guy and become her boyfriend.. and so on.. something like hitting as many birds with one stone.. and it ended up with the girl envied with others girls… (how can she do that?!)
These situations are just one of those hundred situations in the world of girls in love.. and as always, the girls are the ones who cry a lot at the same time could easily justify their actions.. being in love is a really nice feeling and sometimes we can never really tell until we experience being in love.. girls appreciate most “sweet gestures”, kisses, cards, flowers, etc.. and throw them away if something awful happens.. but what does a girl dream most? Well, only a girl knows what’s best!

2005-04-28T16:56:00.000+08:00

summer class

i have summer class for six weeks.. i'll be spending my 6 long weeks studying. yeah, studying..it's been 3 weeks from the start of my summer classes.. only 3 weeks more to go before summer ends.
i've been tied up with everyday quizzes- short quizzes and long quizzes- so i study a lot.. well, even though the schedule is a little bit tight, i have been learning a lot of things about nursing. in our ncm 100 subject, our clinical instructor discussed about the nursing process- how to assess patients. {really very interesting. however, i feel a little bit anxious- maybe the feeling is whether i can do it or not.. but there is no turning back.. that's why i should never give up.} there are also highly technical terms. (at least now, i've been able to memorize the 12 cranial nerves.. which i supposed to have it memorized in my anatomy class.. sorry!) he's very practical and a very good teacher, i think.. ( and he's good looking,too! hehe. joke! joke!)
another is my microbiology subject.. very interesting... i like the subject... (survival of the fittest..) even how comprehensive the long quizzes, i'm learning to change my study habits...

2005-04-18T14:46:00.000+08:00

i happen to browse over the mp3 files and found a nice song by george duke.. when i first heard it, i like the intro, more so, the tune and i tried to find the lyrics on the net.. and i found it.. i don't know why, i kept on listening to the song.. i played it over and over again.. i read the lyrics.. and i couldn't really figure out the meaning.. anyhow, it's now one of my favorites..

i was born to love you

you walk into my life
and change the balance of my days
with your eyes you say
i am yours and you are mine
but still something's very wrong
no i can't just go along
though you want to stay
i must find a reason to delay
we're not the same
you playing games, i know
but if i keep my feeling strong
i'll find the song you sing
though i can tell we're worlds apart
and in my heart it's clear
that love has found a cloudy day
i'm here to say that i
was born to love you
such a lovely face
with a warm and tender smile
though i want you so
it's found in deep inside, i keep saying
don't trust your heart this time
could my mind be playing games
am i so betrayed that my heart and mind
can never be the same
we're not the same
you playing games, i know
i'll find the song you sing
though i can tell we're worlds apart
and in my heart it's clear
that love has found a cloudy day
i'm here to stay that
i was born for you...
.. i was born to love you more..

2005-02-16T20:45:00.003+08:00

my PRIDE... watashiwa haru.. anatawa aki.. we are connected by the seasons..

PRIDE

that night, as i've watched j-dorama.. i couldn't helped saying how COOL kimutaku was.. i have been watching some of his j-doramas like: beautiful life, long vacation, and love generation.. well, it was nice and so far i can say, PRIDE wa daisukiiiiii dayo... kimutaku doesn't have any role transition in terms of "dealing with love" but he was just sooooo kakkoii in pride.. and yuko takeuchi ( totally kawaii....) - they're quite a pair..

.... deaeta koto kara subete wa hajimatta... (why am i saying this?) i just want to say it..

2005-02-10T21:30:00.001+08:00

chocolate sundae snack

the vital statistics exam last wednesday was "overly draining".. an energy draining exam.. it took us more than two hours to finish it. but for me a-more-than-two-hour-exam is not enough to finish the kind of exam given last wednesday... during the exam, everybody was quiet except the sound of the "calculator keys"- and i'm sure everybody was nervous, trying hard to answer all the questions.. at first, i tried to be calm since the exam was all about computations ( which i'm not really good at it ^~^) but then my tension rose up when the teacher announced that we only have 10minutes left.. i didn't think much of the time and there were still questions yet to be answered.. fortunately, the teacher was considerate enough and gave us an extension.. i finished the exam.. but...... i..... failed.. i think... ( *sigh* )

2005-02-08T21:38:00.000+08:00

i should not worry.. i should not..

lately, im a little bit worried about my grade.. or should i worry? maybe because i failed two quizzes in a row.. a really failed mark.. it's already the start of our midterm exams.. and we only have one term test left.. i should study hard... i don't know, it can't be helped... hmmmm, i can do it!!!!!! ^-^

2005-01-04T19:02:00.000+08:00

korean series...

december 18 last year was the last day of school before the start of our christmas break.. i couldn't wait for it since i was so excited to stay at home and watch and watch and watch and watch new korean movies and korean series.. well, i have watched some korean series and to name a few:

> BEAUTIFUL DAYS- my first korean series.. starred LEE BYUNG HUN and CHOI JI WOO.. i'm really inlove with this series.. it's worth staying up late and shedding tears.. (^-^)

> WINTER SONATA- i'm not sure if it's the second series that i've watched, anyways, BAE YONG JUN is very handsome and being paired up with CHOI JI WOO= they look good together.. still, CHOI JI WOO and LEE BYUNG HUN in BEAUTIFUL DAYS, is still number one for me.. (*-*)

> SUMMER SCENT - ahhh, this series made me fell in love with SONG SEUNG HUN- he's very cooooool here paired up with the very feminine SON YE JIN.. it's about destiny..

> ALL IN- well, second to BEAUTIFUL DAYS, this series is very impressive.. all the actors are great,basta, it's very impressive.. LEE BYUNG HUN and SONG HE GYO are quite a pair. (*-*)

> ATTIC CAT- KIM RAE WON and JUN DA BIN, nice pair up in here..(*-*) KIM RAE WON sometimes looks like JERRY YAN (f4).. hehe.. JUN DA BIN played her character well...i watched this series together with my mom for the first time.. we tried to finish it the whole night and the next morning and the next night.. she can't wait to watch another series again..

> SUCCESSFUL STORY OF BRIGHT GIRL - JANG NARA and JANG HYUCK (?)= a very nice couple in this series.. i don't know what to say anymore..

> SANG DOO! LET'S GO TO SCHOOL!!! - was a bit confused of the opening of the story.. but in the later part, im more interested with BORI, SANG DOO'S daughter.. very touching story..

LOVE LETTER= it's a nice story.. hehe..

> ROMANCE - [actually, the series mentioned above were from pochie.. im very grateful that she let me borrowed all]. (thanks poch.. thank you very much.. im very lucky to have you... 0(-.-0) this series is the first ever series that i bought.. the stars KIM HA NEUL (my favorite korean actress) and KIM JAE WON, they did good here.. to those girls who have bfs 6 years younger than them, try to watch this one!!

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and lastly... for the PERFECT PAIR...
LEE DONG GUN and HAN JI HYE in... SWEET 18....

2004-11-27T15:49:00.001+08:00

"the never ending love story.."

....what's hot these days? - yeah, the "lovers in paris" korean series dubbed in tagalog...i really haven't seen much of it but some of my classmates were really very excited- make that- SERIOUSLY INLOVE with Park Shin Yang... i have seen some of Park Shin Yang's movies. and i think he's a good actor.. flexible one- only that... so i really couldn't appreciate the series yet but im sure it's going to be VEeeeeRY interesting.. well. pochie (akong frend) told me not to watch it yet... so im not watching it now... however i've been hearing a lot of "noises" about "the never ending love story" of each episodes... geeez, i'm trying not to hear them, but it can't be helped.. i won't spoil it myself though i'm really eager and couldn't wait to watch it.. sooo, when will it be? soon... very soon....

2004-11-23T17:56:00.001+08:00

"my first hospital duty"

yesterday, i spent the whole day thinking and preparing for my first hospital duty.. what's it going to be? i felt a little bit anxious about it since it's going to be my first time ever...well, i've been hospitalized many times but now it's different.. i'm not the patient anymore.. i'm the student nurse... i watched a few episodes of jdorama before i slept( i just can't helped it...) but i just couldn't sleep well after... hmmm, i slept for only two hours and woke up at 4am this morning... it's not that i'm totally excited but i made a promise with my classmate that we'll go together to the hospital and meet at exactly 6am. i couldn't face the shame anymore since i'm always late with every appointments that i made with the classmate that i'm going to meet. so i made it at exactly 6am this morning!! and my classmate was late!!!!! hahaha.... i tried not to get angry since i made her feel so many times.. (good for me!!) so we arrived at the hospital just in time- 6:45 our "assembly time". however, we waited for our clinical instructor for an hour and thirty minutes... (so much for being so early!!) anyways,we were given our assignments right after she arrived and i was assigned to room number 206 with a "muslim" patient.. (sorry... ) at first, i felt hesitant.. oh, what should i do?.. well, all we have to get is the TPR.. yeah, the TPR... i took a deep breath before going inside my patient's room.. and even projected a smile and voila!- a little girl , 2 years of age, cried just as i came in!! my goodness.. she got scared of me!.. she thought i'm going to prick blood from her finger (whatever it is) so i tried to calm her down... and yeah, i managed!! whew! and it took me time to do my assessment.. i find it difficult.. but i tried to finish it all.. i did.. but not with so much honesty... ( i don't want to mention it...) it was an enjoyable experience for me.. five hours stay in the hospital once a week, there's more that i should look forward to... and so, i finished my chart graphing and presented it to my clinical instructor and just can't wait to go home... geez, i never thought it would be this way.. it's not easy gyud.. it's not really easy gyud.. i couldn't help thinking about what's going to happen soon.. soon?... but i should make it happen and do my best always.. i still have a long way to go.. i couldn't afford to make the same mistake twice.. ahhh, fighting!!

2004-11-12T10:09:00.001+08:00

"kinoo wa tanoshikatta..."
i had my first japanese class yesterday and it was, yeah, "tanoshikatta".. ( im not yet that familiar with the tenses...*-* i'm trying.. ) and also, it was my first and maybe my last class with noreen sensei... i remembered how i wanted to enrol a class with noreen as the subject teacher. i thought i won't be able to get any, and voila! fortunately i could!! *-* i still have to add the subject next week because im not yet formally enrolled in that class.. i hope i could get in.. *-* anyways, we had our first meeting yesterday, only four of us students ( such a small class for a start..) and i enjoyed - er- kinda nervous but maybe i felt " exasperated" (huH? i couldn't think of any other words to describe it... i'll try to check it again.. hahaha..) or i was just excited.. i feel it's going to be a great experience for me.. i told pochie about it and she said "teach me, too".... of course!!! ( i'll share everything that im going to learn from this class.. matte daijyobu, pochie? )

2004-07-08T15:22:00.001+08:00

by Every Little Thing

eien ni tsuzuku ai no uta
Uhh... kikasete
setsunasa to yasashisa wo sotto
Uhh... oshiete
hayari no fuku no youni
kantan ni kimochi made mo
kaerarenai
kakegae no nai mono!
omoide mo hokoreru youni
shiganai yo no naka demo
Over and Over
Over and Over
kawaranu ai wo sagasu darou

hito wa naze yowakina jibun wo
Uhh... kakusu no?
joushikina kodomo no kokoro wo
Uhh... nakusu no?

karada kasaneru tabi
taisetsuna kotoba sae mo
kawasanu mama
surechigau aijou

sukoshi zutsu mawarimichi demo
owaranu tabi no hate ni
Over and Over
Over and Over
itsuka wa tadoritsuku no darou

kanashimi no kazu dake
ari no mama ni ai seru no nara

koi ni ochiru to
toki ni dareka wo kizu tsuketeru
iiwake shitemo
ureshisa dake ga nokoru yo ne

sayonara mo meguriai sae
owaranu tabi no youni
Over and Over
Over and Over
sore demo ai wo sagasu darou

kawaranu ai ni todoku darou...

===================================

he was just so cool....

2004-06-22T11:24:00.000+08:00

*-*

i visited a friend today.. it has been a while that i we haven't talked or even said "hi".. it's not just a while rather it has been a long time.. well, the recent encounter with her was a little bit awkward.. but i felt good to be able to talk with her again... what happened between us anyway? well, it was sort of tragic..if i will write it here, it wouldn't be good to dig up something from the past that's supposed to be forgotten. i wish i had real powers.. if i have the power to change the past, i would like to go back to the day that "something" happened to us and prevent it from happening.. could it be that i am regretting? or maybe, i'm just really bothered.. even now, it's still hard.. i also have this fear.. unexplainable fear that i really want to overcome.. how? should i talk it with her? i really couldn't decide on what to do.. but i was thinking of talking it out with her.. *sigh* i want to start fresh over.. i really want to..

anyways, i went to pochie's (my special friend) house.. i stayed and we talked on serious things. i liked staying in her room..it's so comfortable... well, pochie and i have something in common and we also shared a lot of things.. so i like talking with her about anything.. it was really worth my time staying with her for a few hours.. but i have to go home since i have to be early at school the next day.. thanks poch! *-*

2004-06-17T11:02:00.000+08:00

"tagaytay trip"

we went to tagaytay city last may 29-31 for a leadership training seminar. 17 soka gakkai international-philippines ywd members (including me) from cagayan de oro city traveled together by ship, left for manila last may 26.. until now, the memories that we had created back there in tagaytay still lingered in mind.. i enjoyed a lot.. especially the place.. i was awed because the place was really beautiful and relaxing... we stayed at the sgi grand culture center and around it was the picturesque view of taal volcano..

these are my friends.. unfortunately, i wasn't able to join them in this picture.. but i just wanted to show part of the magnificent view around the culture center..( please look closer..you can see taal lake..)

i didn't just enjoy the place but i also learned a lot.. the things i learned are the things that i can really apply not just now but for a lifetime.. thanks so much for the ywd leaders from manila.. they were really encouraging and they gave very great lectures.. " a leader must be strict of himself but gentle on others.." and there's more, i couldnt forget the food.. the food tastes great and also brewed coffee.. (hmmm,you really get to crave more from it..)

but here's one pic where i'm in.. a friend shared this one to me.. this picture was taken during our "amusement activity.." one member told me to dance, but i already reminded her that she can let me do anything except to dance.. unfortunately, during our group presentation, she asked me to... but i didn't.. and the presentation went on... (of course, without me dancing pamela wan.. huhuhuhuhuhuhuhu...)

so what else?... yup, we left tagaytay by may 31.. geez, i missed the place.. we arrived home june 2.. geez, still there's no place like home..

P.S.

i spent my birthday on the ship.. last june 1st..

2004-05-20T18:49:00.001+08:00

..two beautiful nights with beautiful days...

i went to my friend's house (pochie who's gaga over LBH) to return all her vcds that i borrowed. after i got there, we had a chat and a little drink.. then before going home, she let me borrowed one korean series with 24 cds. the title was "BEAUTIFUL DAYS". at first, i really don't have any idea about the whole story. yet, i brought it at home and started watching the next day.. my goodness! i was captivated by the first episode that i couldn't afford not to watch the rest of the cds. i stayed in my room the whole day, without thinking of eating breakfast, lunch or dinner.. (*tsk*) the first two episodes made me cry that i got more curious of what's the rest of the story about.... my! my! it was really touching.. i stayed up late in two nights crying and laughing with all of the characters in the story just to finish everything.. *sigh* i fell in love again.. c: i fell in love with the story.. with LEE BYUNG HUN as the "handsome crown prince"- he's cho-cho charming.. nice body built *-*,and with CHOI JI WOO as the "handsome crown prince's darling..",for me, it was a great combination..i even imagined myself as the "handsome crown prince's darling"... hahahahahahaha.... nothing's wrong with it anyway... after watching it all, i decided to do some "episode-review".. watching again my fave episodes.. it was worth my time!!! ^-^ the drama isn't just about "WHAT IS LOVE?".. what is love anyway? ^-^ it also showed some "harsh realities" of dealing life.. but the love story itself is indeed beautiful.. i express my gratitude to p-sama.. (thanks a lot*-*..) im not really that good in expressing what i feel.. although this may be just one "story", i enjoyed watching it, no, i love it!!

what is love...?

2004-05-16T23:58:00.001+08:00

........the secret getaway......

i arrived home today at around 10pm from "follow-up", at the same time my parents arrived.. i ate my dinner fast and did some household chores.. whew!! after i finished everything, i told my mother that i will visit a friend (who is my neighbor).. actually, i need to return her stuffs that i borrowed 3 days ago.time checked was already 11:35pm. but an hour ago, my friend and i thought of going online at the internet cafe just near our subdivision.. unfortunately, the internet cafe was already closed.. we decided to go far from our subdivision, that's it!!! i went away without asking permission just to check email.(it was around 12:05am) :p . *whew!* this isn't good.. still, i went out. and now, i'm posting the things that happened moments ago.. kinda secret getaway or whatever should i call it.. i just hope nothing will happen in going home.... i gotta go.. i felt uneasy doing this.. *-*

.. i was really scared...

2004-05-08T20:38:00.000+08:00

*-*

Elvish or Orcish What Language Are You?

2004-05-06T22:45:00.000+08:00

Your integrity and sense of morals are as strong as a steel wall. Your honesty and pride give you honour, and your haste to defend the honour of good people make you worthy of being called a friend. But you harbour deep feelings of unworthiness, and hide them beneath layers of outward strength and discipline. Because of this, you have a hard time allowing others to call you a friend, and find much of your discontentment turn into frustration. Try to understand that by letting others in, you eliminate much of your frustration and improve your true self-image. Which Love Hina Girl Are You?

2004-05-06T21:26:00.000+08:00

"winners"

my friend "kou" emailed me this anime song.. i really don't know what's the tune or what's the anime all about.. either way, the message is nice.. *-* ah, thanks kou!! *-*

Yes there's a reason for all that we're given
Just like the eyes in our head
They point the way so our lives can move forward
To see what future lies ahead
Believe each other
And relax for a while
To stare at the stars in the sky
Believe each other
And the strength of your smile
Will keep our hearts moving through fire
And though it may not be the happiest of times
Tomorrow you will see a rising sun
So keep on dreaming, always believe in yourself
Yes, lead the way and make it for someone
So run like the wind and charge ahead
To the end we are Winners
Speed is the magic that gives us direction
The last of gods power drive
Now we can move on without hesitation
To a brand new world that's alive
Believe each other
'Cause the joy that you find
Lasts just a moment in time
Believe each other
Two hearts with one single mind
Can take us where our hearts desire
Because it may not be the brightest of times
We must hold on together tight this time
So if we keep on dreaming
All can come true
We'll reach the light that's at the end of the rainbow
It may not be the happiest of times
Tomorrow you will see a rising sun
So keep on dreaming always believe in yourself
Yes, lead the way and make if for someone
So run like the wind and charge ahead
To the end we are Winners!

2004-05-04T16:57:00.000+08:00

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rainy day... i expected a call from "someone" last night, but nothing. i was really excited-----but again, nothing... pochie texted me and told me to post on my blog so she can read something..i just had my second to the last muscle therapy today.. tomorrow would be the last day *sigh*.. i just can't wait to end it.. it consumes much of my time.. i don't know but im just happy.. really happy.. really happy.. i don't have anything in mind now..maybe tomorrow..

2004-05-02T14:13:00.000+08:00

for pochie*-*
i was sooo shocked after i opened my blog... it was magic.. pochie sama, sugoi yo.. you are really great... my life would not be perfect if you were not here for me at all. nyaks... you really made my day..

2004-03-07T09:29:00.000+08:00

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i was sooooooooooooooooooo disappointed today.. we had our laboratory in anatomy class from 1-5pm. and after the prelab lecture, we had a practical exam on the digestive system.. and what happened was i failed the practical exam.. i never felt so humiliated in my entire stay in cu. aaaarghhhhhh!!!!!!! just soooooo disappointing.. i want to make it up.. i don't want to have a bad grade in this subject..

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2004-03-06T06:44:00.000+08:00

rainy friday... cold, yet, lonely day..

2004-03-06T05:36:00.000+08:00

geez... im still thinking... thinking... thinking..