" in my dreams..."

.... no use going back...

"lately, i feel i don't know what i want.. or somehow confused of something.. so what is it? so i want change... what change? no, change..so i want to hide... hide where? so i want the earth to open up and swallow me... that would be great!! but it would be bad..that would never happen.. so i want to go deep under the sea and just stay there..... impossible.. it's boring in the sea.. unless you're a fish... so i want to stay in my room.. and watch something or read something.. anything... it would be ok.. but too much... "
ever felt these? as if you just don't know what to do, where to go, what to think, what to find? this is boredom...... this is defeat... this is losing one's self.. "